He held me in his arms.....
I felt his warm breath on me, his heart beating inside.....
It felt so right, there with him......
I wanted the moment to go on forever.....
It
had to end however, and so did that feeling of safety, security and happiness.
Even after
all this time.....All this work.the aching is there......
It
seems as though I'm still 5 years old......
Vulnerable
to the pain, anguish, and sorrow......
When will caring for someone not mean hurt and sadness
inside?
When will
I feel the warm sunshine of their love and know they will be there for me?
As we held each other I realized all I have been and done thus far has been for
Love.......
I am a being of Love and Light!
The question is why......
Why is it so important for me?
Why must the message
be spread to all no matter the cost?
Perhaps it is somehow healing in a very private, quiet place inside.....
The place where that
5-year-old still exists.......
Living in a world of broken promises and shattered dreams.....
Where innocence has
no place.....
This child knew inside he would brave many storms, face many challenges alone....
When does it end?!
When will we meet
in the sky and fly together?
When do we share
the Love and Light?
Creating our magic, miracles and JOY?
I know not when inside....
But the feeling lingers and I remain here, deep inside....
And I.....
I wonder.....
Saturday, July 10, 2002 10:45 PM
