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I TURN TO YOU!!!
CONFIDENCE
Nothing in life is to be feared.
It is only to be
understood.
-Marie Curie
Friday, October 3, 2003
YOU'RE MY REALITY!
WITH YOU I'M LOST IN A DREAM....
YOU'RE THE FIRST....
YOU'RE THE LAST
MY EVERYTHANG !!!
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
Words worth sending back mutiplied to the Source
of their magic.
Another day shared on this planet. And always another reason to get up to live another day.
In
some ways did we ever dream it would be this SIMPLE. At times, I
think even lightworkers forget.
You know what
baby, tonight I think this...
That, as Beings of Light we made the greatest step forward, created the most magic, found
the greatets sucess.
We lived and loved as humans.
That's gotta rock.
here's to our family everywhere
throughout the Kingdom of Creation.
Long Live Eagle Love!
Neil xxx
Monday, July 28, 2003
My Dearest Eagle and Partner in Freedom,
Though I will speak to you in moments and you are here
sharing this moment with me here in DC as part of me
is there with you in Seattle I felt it necessary to
share one more message with you.
Neil, you are such an amazing ball of NRG and Light,
one I never expected to find this early on the
journey. You have helped me recognize the better
parts of myself not only as an Eagle or Rising Phoenix
but as an ordinary human being. To know you, to share
this all with you is so amazing....But your truest
gift, your greatest power I've always seen from within
you is your vulnerability.
That which is your greatest strength you have allowed
not only me but many others on this spinning blue
marble to find, and even love, to nurture through
time.
Randy, Adam, Rob, Mike, Spencer, Gonzola, Crystal,
Kelly Ann, Mark, Kerry, Fernando, Kelly, Jeff....Your
father, brothers, and your own dear father......Baby
they saw it all. And still do. I know each time they
look up at the stars part of them sees you, and weeps
over the beauty and joy you share with us all.
For you do not have a job, nothing which is confining,
unhealty or binding any longer. FREEDOM is your
ocupation baby, what is there in your heat and always
around you, even in the darkest of moments.
We are all so very lucky to even say we knew you, if
only for a moment.
Nearly 3 years ago, less than a mile from where I now
sit in Peace I found you again baby. I saw the Light
you shown through up your the box, the mystical
treasure held true for so very long. And on that most
magical night....Baby I felt your Peace, smelled the
ocean breeze on your wings...And you know what? I
wanted you to be part of my existence there, to share
it all. But, I knew that even if we had never seen
each other after the moment we parted outside Badlands
it would have been enough. That you are one who
touches the world with a mere thought, a smile, and
that most wonderous, beautiful, childlike laugh you
posess baby....
And I know that always, ALWAYS!....Shall the desire
for to Play and Love it all (the Light and Darkness)
shall dominiate your existence.
May the wind be at our backs:)......
Thank you for always being there, giving more yet
asking nothing in return...
For having the courage to be YOU and none other, and
helping me to find that inside, to remember who we
both are....and Why we are here:)
I commend my heart, my very soul...All that I have
been and all that I shall be to you my beloved Eagle
and Dear Friend.
~EAGLEBOYDC~
X X X
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Monday, July 14, 2003 12:00 PM
"Wrapped in blue blankets, stitched together
from the tears cried into the sea....
I shall brave even this storm....."
~Tim
Wednesday, June 18, 2003 4:33 PM
The time of anniversaries is here.....
4 Years........My High School Graduation
3 Years........My father, Ron died
3 Years........My brother and one very close to me graduated H.S.
2 Years........This website, an Oracle of Light was created
1 Year.........I began my job on Capitol Hill
Let the Freedom, adventure, and waves of change continue to blow through, propelling us into the
new wave of Light! :-)
Here's to those who walked with us in the ages past, those who are with us today, and those who we shall
forever carry inside ourselves.....Always a reminder of who we are and from where we've come....
Tuesday, June 17, 2003 5:54
PM
"Enjoy the magic you are bringing in!"
~Tim
Sunday, May 11, 2003
"Its hard to remember...A summer or winter when she hasn't been there for me. A friend and companion I can always
depend on...My mother, thats who I need. I've taken for granted, the seeds that she planted....She's always behind
every scene...
A teacher, a seeker, of both arms I reach her...My mother, that's who I need.
Wish I could slow down the hands of time....Keep things the way they are.
If she said so I would so, I would give her the world, if I could, I would....
My love and my laughter, from here everafter is all that she says that she needs. A friend and compantion I can
alway depend on, my Mother, that's who I need.....
My Mother...That's who I need...."
Tuesday, May 6, 2003
Today marks four years of Freedom and truth inside myself! I need say nothing more for I am
here, as ME and FREER than ever before! Ethan approaches from on high waiting for me....
I feel the breeze of his Eagle Wings flapping above the clouds...
I await our meeing in the sky and the adventures, Love, Joy, passion and Commitment together for
one another....
xxx
:-)
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To : britboyseattle@yahoo.com Subject : Your Solar Return Date : Wed, 12 Mar 2003 13:29:23 -0500 Where
the tides of time take us across these 1000 oceans none can say. But baby You are here now, in this moment as YOU!
Stronger and more powerful than I have ever seen you before. For when the walls of Atlantis crumbled we were both forced
to flee and seperate. But today you are stronger than ever. You heal the cracks not only in the foundation
of your own life but for those all around the world whom you share your Light with. Happy Solar Return Baby!
Always know I am here and the greatest moments are those we are living in right now, as it gets better every day. For
YOU My Beloved Eagle in the Sky :-) Hugs, Kisses, Magic, Miracles, and a Hell of a loud laugh and FUN!, ~ T!M
:-) X X X
March 12, 2003
Every moment of every
day in this life is precious to me. To look life in the face, know it for what it is and to be able to live it to the
fullest for oneself is a rare gem. For the last 2 years I've been engaged in 1 of the greatest adventures of all my
lives combined....
A journey where each moment
is more joyful than the last
Where life truly comes
into greater focus with each new, passing moment.
Today I celebrate the
Solar Return of one who I share every bit of my existence in this grand adventure with....
One who has taught me
to Love like I never thought possible, most importantly from within.
One who has shared so
much with me, yet always traversing a vast physical distance to do so....
And so the time is here. The planets are in line once again and the Light he has carried so deep inside shall
shine through today and forever more. For this is the beginning.
The beginning of something
very new for the both of us..
For today he turns 3 years
old again. From this point on age is not a constant or a badge of honor to be
worn or achieved. It is merely part of the physical world. A world he is no longer deeply entrenched in. For now
is the time of his return.
The return to the grand
skies of sunshine, beauty, Light, and Peace.
I see the Light Rays of
the coming adventures
And "I like what I see..And
it makes me want to.
"RUN ON!, and see what
tomorrow will be, cause I like what I see!"
This most prized Eagle has
always loved what he's seen in this life, both the Light and darkness. I can
feel the anticipation and new Freedom he's found inside even as far away as he is. For
as our physical distance has increased over time our bond has only grown. And
so, I wish to him on this, a most important day and a day not unlike many others to come all the JOY, Peace and Freedom....
You have found it already
my friend and soul mate. And the time has come for so much more! Greater joy, beauty and laughter and Fun echoing through your soul.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEIL!!!
I love you baby and am always
right here with you on this most amazing journey, waiting to see whats in store for us both next, loving it all, playing and
as always.
RUNNING ON!!!
Wednesday, February 19, 2003
THE GENTLE ART OF BLESSING
by Pierre Pradervand
On awakening, bless this day, for it is already full of unseen good which your blessings will call forth; for to bless is
to acknowledge the unlimited good that is embedded in the very texture of the universe and awaiting each and all.
On passing people in the street, on the bus, in places of work and play, bless them. The peace of your blessing will accompany
them on their way and the aura of its gentle fragrance will be a light to their path.
On
meeting and talking to people, bless them in their health, their work, their joy, their relationships to God, themselves,
and others. Bless them in their abundance, their finances...bless them in every conceivable way, for such blessings not only
sow seeds of healing but one day will spring forth as flowers of joy in the waste places of your own life.
As you walk, bless the city in which you live, its government and teachers, its nurses and streetsweepers, its children and
bankers, its priests and prostitutes. The minute anyone expresses the least aggression or unkindness to you, respond with
a blessing: bless them totally, sincerely, joyfully, for such blessings are a shield which protects them from the ignorance
of their misdeed, and deflects the arrow that was aimed at you.
To bless means to wish,
unconditionally, total, unrestricted good for others and events from the deepest wellspring in the innermost chamber of your
heart: it means to hallow, to hold in reverence, to behold with utter awe that which is always a gift from the Creator. He
who is hallowed by your blessing is set aside, consecrated, holy, whole. To bless is yet to invoke divine care upon, to think
or speak gratefully for, to confer happiness upon - although we ourselves are never the bestower, but simply the joyfull witnesses
of Life's abundance.
To bless all without discrimination of any sort is the ultimate form
of giving, because those you bless will never kmow from whence came the sudden ray of sun that burst through the clouds of
their skies, and you will rarely be a witness to the sunlight in their lives.
When something
goes completely askew in your day, some unexpected event knocks down your plans and you too also, burst into blessing: for
life is teaching you a lesson, and the very event you believe to be unwanted, you yourself called forth, so as to learn the
lesson you might balk against were you not to bless it. Trials are blessings in disguise, and hosts of angels follow in their
path.
To bless is to acknowledge the omnipresent, universal beauty hidden to material eyes;
it is to activate that law of attraction which, from the furthest reaches of the universe, will bring into your life exactly
what you
need to experience and enjoy.
When you pass a prison, mentally bless its inmates
in their innocence and freedom, their gentleness, pure essence and unconditional forgiveness; for one can only be prisoner
of one's self-image, and a free man can walk unshackled in the courtyard of a jail, just as citizens of countries where freedom
reigns can be prisoners when fear lurks in their thoughts.
When you pass a hospital, bless
its patients in their present wholeness, for even in their suffering, this wholeness awaits in them to be discovered. When
your eyes behold a man in tears, or seemingly broken by life, bless him in his vitality and joy: for the material senses present
but the inverted image of the ultimate splendor and perfection which only the inner eye beholds.
It is impossible to bless and to judge at the same time. So hold constantly as a deep, hallowed, intoned thought that desire
tobless, for truly then shall you become a peacemaker, and one day you shall, everywhere, behold the very face of God.
February 14, 2003
A perfect Message of Love not only for this day but for every moment of existence!
HAPPY VALENTNE'S DAY !!!
XXX
Let the Peace, Freedom, Love, and Light Continue to ring, shine through as we all RUN ON! and see
what the end will be:)
Saturday, February 1, 2003
BABY THE NEW MOON IS HERE!!!
After a very long, difficult phase, spiritually, physically and emotionally the Light
of a new phase is shining through and as always....
I LOVE IT!!!
As I just drove back from DC with all the windows down, taking in the night air I heard
"Bring On the Rain" which fit my feelings at this moment perfectly. For tomorrow is another day and once again
"I'm thirsty, so Bring On the Rain!" Tonight I say to the world and all in the universe BRING IT ON!!!
And always shall I RUN ON! AND SEE WHAT THE END WILL BE!!!
Tuesday, February 4, 2003
Two INCREDIBLE POEMS Neil passed on to me!
Even though it seems you hurt me
Turned out the light just as I was finding my feet
I
will not let the scarred memory of
Your touch, leave me a victim
I shall not be one of the walking wounded
Trailing torn heartstrings
A violent
violin sonata,
I will not let the trails of tears carve
One more solitary walk home
Down my face.
I will not let my beauty be scarred
By the abuse of silence
That rained under your
skies.
I will not be punished by your
Words made in jest, laughed at and prodded.
Denied
in your eyes.
I deserve the best. I will not make your lies
And
your own game, blind me to my own.
I shall not let the memory of your
Unfaithfulness to your word, convince me
To
become a victim of your love.
I am not a victim.
I chose it all, and the words to say
That being a martyr is unbecoming
And
the victim soul
Is a role I cannot
play
U left.
without me shouting, screaming
crying for you
You walked away
without me forcing you,
pleading you
Begging you to face me
And stay.
U turned your back
And the only rejection I felt
Was for the old way of my life
I no longer choose
When these things
Made me feel less
Than the soaring spirit
I am.
January 18, 2003
"Opportunity"
When things are at their darkest,
And sun seems not
to shine,
Tis then you count your blessings
And not let faith decline.
For trouble isn't trouble,
And problems
are misnamed,
They're all just opportunities
To prove you'll play the game.
For within every heartache,
And
every lifetime mess
Lie seeds of pure perfection,
That grow when under stress.
So cherish every struggle,
And
let your heart be glad!
Remember, those whom God loves most
He first must drive near mad!
Within this Divine Madness
Which chosen ones endure
Grow seeds of great perfection
That one day make you pure.
-.:Mirabel:.
"WE SHALL BE FREE"
When the last child cries for a crust
of bread
When the last man dies for just words that he said
When there's shelter over the poorest head
We shall be
free
When the last thing we notice is the color of skin
And the first thing we look for is the beauty within
When
the skies and the oceans are clean again
Then we shall be free
When we're free to love anyone we choose
When
this world's big enough for all different views
When we all can worship from our own kind of pew
Then we shall be free
And
when money talks for the very last time
And nobody walks a step behind
When there's only one race and that's mankind
Then
we shall be free
-From a 1990's album by Garth Brooks
Tuesday, November 19, 2002
Happy Full Moon and Lunar Eclipse!
Big changes are just around the corner as enter the end of the this great phase.
Release something to the universe and marvel at the beauty and Peace you will find inside after mastering this power of surrender.
For it will all return to you 10 fold. Our time is here baby! LET IT RIP!
I LOVE IT ALL FOREVERMORE!!!
Monday, November 11, 2002 1:11 PM
22 Years ago today I returned to this world, beginging the final, greatest phase of all
my lives. After much time, pain, and hard work the Light I have held deep inside for so many previous lives has begun
to shine through for all the world to see! This has been the Year of Peace and Freedom for me, both finding it and living
it. I know not what this next year will bring but I know it will be filled with many BIG moments of destiny as the clarity
of my soul shines through. And so I dub my 22nd year on the planet, my life path purpose year, the Year of Destiny!
"Today is a reminder of why you came back."
-Neil
3:33 PM
Saturday, November 9, 2002 7:00 PM
"Whenever anger, hate or negative NRG is directed at you there is only 1 true way to silence it.....
Three powerful words....
'I Love You'"
-Tim
Monday, November 4, 2002 5:24 PM
HAPPY NEW MOON TO ALL!
Embrace Freedom, adversity, change, and most of all LOVE! Here's to the next greatest
phase of it all! Live it all up and take at least a moment to connect with yourself and the universe. Choose something
you want in the next phase of your life, honor yourself and all you are! For you just may wake up tomorrow finding you
have new wings and take flight!
Expect not only magic but CREATE a new miracle for yourself in this next phase....
And as always.......
RUN ON!!!
Friday, October 25, 2002 1:15AM
This message is for a special Eagle on the east coast.
This is to certify that you have been awarded the job of light bringer to all
corners of darkness in the universe...
It has come to our attention that recently you have been experiencing moments
of darkness in your own life.
It is now that we come to you....
And for that very reason, to remind you that you are light and darkness in
equal measure. ....
For it is this balance that gives the stars a place to shine.....
May you walk in peace and remember....
That for every moment of laughter,
Every moment of Joy,
Every moment of Fun,
You have an angle by your side......
And that for each of these moments you bring you will be visited by at least
5 jock boys.
From north to south from to west to east....
In Light and Love,
~The Family of Light~
Tuesday, October 29, 2002
Go with Love and always choose life!
"MY FATHER ASKED IF I AM GAY
I ASKED DOES IT MATTER?
HE SAID NO NOT REALLY I SAID YES.
HE SAID GET OUT OF MY LIFE!
...I GUESS IT MATTERED.
MY BOSS ASKED IF I AM GAY I ASKED DOES IT MATTER?
HE SAID NO NOT REALLY I TOLD HIM YES.
HE SAID YOU'RE FIRED,
FAGGOT!
...I GUESS IT MATTERED.
MY FRIEND ASKED IF I AM GAY I SAID DOES IT MATTER?
HE SAID NOT REALLY I TOLD
HIM YES.
HE SAID DON'T CALL ME YOUR FRIEND!
...I GUESS IT MATTERED.
MY LOVER ASKED DO YOU LOVE ME?
I ASKED
DOES IT MATTER?
HE SAID YES I TOLD HIM I LOVE YOU HE SAID LET ME HOLD YOU IN MY ARMS!!!
FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE
SOMETHING MATTERS!!!
MY GOD ASKED ME DO YOU LOVE YOURSELF?
I SAID DOES IT MATTER?
HE SAID YES.
I SAID
HOW CAN I LOVE MYSELF? I AM GAY!
HE SAID THAT IS WHAT I MADE YOU...!
...NOTHING AGAIN WILL EVER MATTER"
Friday, October 25, 2002 12:58 PM
"One word frees us of all the weight and pain in life. That word
is love."
- Sophocles
Friday, October 18, 2002 159:AM
Rumor Mill News Reading Room Forum
WE ARE ONE
Posted
By: Tylersword <stclair@passage11.com>
Date: Saturday, 12 October 2002, 2:42 p.m.
Beyond the here and now,
beyond the symptons of human insanity, beyond global strategy, beyond psychism, beyond space-time considerations,
and
beyond everything - there is the immensely profound feed back from some of OUR readers. One of my readers who has been in
constant contact with me since I appeared on RMN, wrote to me a thought that was long overdue, and I will share it now with
you as verbatim as I can, in excerpts, for it was a long
letter about my postings related to astrology and Golden Eye
technology and more:
"From the information I am receiving it appears that Humanity has already been on the track you
are talking about in your posts. They've already been there, and something set them back to get them off the track... giving
them a chance to reconsider rather than obliterate themselves off the face of the Universe.
"Thousands of years later,
they are collectively back at the point in which they were collectively 'set back'. This is where we are going as a Race.
It does not have to be that way. We are talking here about ALL the wars, the violence, the hatred. Immature struggles for
A Power does not exist. Power does not exist in that way.
"The driving force behind all that we are seeing is not
Bush, Enron, China, India, Islam, etc. It is us. We are the driving force. We are making it happen. We are all making it REAL,
because REALITY it is not. They told me it is KARMIC ASTROLOGY. The leaders and events you see are an astrological reflection
of the whole picture.
"This struggle, battle, is as old as Humanity is! We don't have to do this. We don't have to
go there. We ARE doing it. Collectively. Do you know what the Anti-Christ is? A reflection. The Anti Christ is a mirror. A
human being reflecting the deeper inner disorder of all of Mankind. Each part is playing a part. but is not APART!
All
the differeing factions fighting each other? Do you know who they are? They are ONE HUMANITY. They are BROTHERS and SISTERS,
they are all related to one another. Just watch what happens! They are probably beginning to wake up to this one for themselves,
just at this point in the game they have created for themselves. Is the blood real? Yes. Is the pain real? Yes it is.
"ONE
FAMILY - WE are ONE.
"Do you see where I am going with this? If we are one, there can be no winners, no losers. One
part of the holograph cannot exist isolated from the WHOLE of its BEING. NO ONE can win. If we don't stop... it means fighting
ourselves for the rest of ETERNITY.
"The darkness does not EXIST in the way we think it does. It is a REFLECTION,
a MIRROR. We are ALL on the same PATH.
"The Shadow inside us is a Mirror. And No One will look into that Mirror. This
has been happening to us for thousands of years. But without the looking, we are going nowhere... "
End Quote
I
ask of you to consider these words and reflect deep within. And then I ask of you to send this thought on to all your friends.
Namaste!
Tylersword
P.S.
Many thanks to my readers for the continued feed back. Again, I learn more
from my readers, than they learn from my posts. Thank you all so very much. By sharing this knowing we can change
the
course of events.
Tuesday, October 8, 2002
A beautiful passed on to me from Margie!
"There are so many different ways to be connected to people. There are the people you feel this
unspoken connection to, even though there's not even a word for it. There's the people who you've known forever who know you
in this way that other people can't because they've seen you change. They've let you change." - Claire Danes
Sunday, October 6, 2002 12:17 AM
"Look at You NOW!"
by
Tim Crist
Remeber when you were big running around your bed
LOOK AT YOU NOW!
Remember Ron...
LOOK AT YOU NOW!
Remember taking your shirt off for the 1st time....
LOOK AT YOU NOW!
Remember Ben....
LOOK AT YOU NOW!
Remember Club Freedom...
LOOK AT YOU NOW!
Remember Flying for the first time.....
LOOK AT YOU NOW!
Based on words of freedom from Neil over IM.
September 30, 2002
Here is an email I received from Neil this morning that was SOOO AMAZING! It was
a true reminder of who I am and why I'm here and I wanted to share my joy and freedom with all. More than that, as always
its my home that all who read this will see a part of them and work to know joy for all moments of their life!
"I checked up and there is a new message. I was out today at a festival in
Venice, on Abbot Kinney,
boys everywhere and i was upset when a beautiful guy
disappeared etc etc and then coming home and reading this, I realize
that
boys arent everything and i think our lives are to reflect more than mere
physical passion. And my fave line
in this piece is that if you live in the
moment, you'll always be in the right place at the right time.
hundreds
of thousands of people protested the war on Iraq in England and I
was so proud and tears of joy came forward. I am sure
there'll be some strike
against somewhere (uk or usa) that will try and get people drawn into the
conflict even more.
No matter what happens, it's all on time, and we can only
stand in the Light.
I think, that thru our crazy lives,
on this planet, through all the fun and
adventures, THAT simple truth - of standing in the light - was really all we
needed
to do.
Funny, eh?!
LOVE - the answer to the final question you ask.
Remembver too, babe, that thru the
stuff in the years ahead there are two
choices only - LOVE and FEAR. My book i guess is a part of that message and I
should
get it published soon, to further that word.
I LOVE YOU! Soar on, and wherver ythe shfits occur, you'll always have
an
eagle around you. If you were caught up the smoke and debvris filled air in
NYC that day, even in the darkness,
you'd have an Angel with you. And an
Eagle. Please remember that. No matter what is going on OUT THERE, i'm around
and
so are other Eagles!. Just when you need them most. I feel you in moments
when IM nervous or scared etc, and your energy
gives me hope and love!
So here's to one soul i have met walking this planet who I'll take with me
everywhere.
And that is SO awesome.
With you till the end, and beyond,
Love,
Neil xx"
Wednesday, September 11, 2002
This is a day to honor and pay tribute to those
who are no longer with us and those who have fought so very hard in the last year for freedom, in more ways than one.
Today is a new begining for all the universe. We will celebrate freedom, diversty, LOVE AND REBIRTH!! 911 will
always be our day of LIGHT, more than we ever thought possible from now on! Remeber the strength,
triumph, and victories acheived. Mourn for those we've lost but live for today and create tomorrow in their memory!
Don't live in fear today or any other, rather the Light we all create from inside ourselves and spread around the world!
This darkness shall not consume us, yet unite us all as it has over the last year to create a new bond of unbreaking
Light that shall carry us all! "No Day But Today!"
In Peace and Freedom,
Love and Light!!!
We are all divine creatures in this universe.
Tuesday, September 3, 2002
This last cycle has brought about so many wonderful changes in my life! When I
left school I gave myself 6 months for just me to see what would happen. I now see that its all for me! There are
some moments in life where you aren't certain what the next step will be but you still venture down the unknown path.
These last 6 months were some of the scariest, darkest moments ever for they were completely different than anything
before. I began at a point where I literally destroyed all there was in my life, releasing and letting go of so much.
There were days where I was in a very dark place for I had no home, job, or close network physically nearby to help me. Rather
than give up, however, I did what I've always done and comes naturally to me....
I RAN ON TO SEE WHAT THE END WILL BE! And baby, I LOVE what I see!
I have an amazing job which I love, working with wonderufl people. I live in a
beautiful home with my dear friends, Ronnie, Benny, and his mother with my own space where I can create the magic and
miracles for all the world.
I have a wonderful boyfriend who makes me smile like no other. I never expected
or even thought I deserved something like this. And lastly, I have a close network of friends here which support
me. More importantly than that, I have what I have always had which is me. And.....
A VERY special Eagle flying high with me in Venice Beach, CA! I'm
on the cusp of Sunshine, flying to the rainbows and miracles awaiting me ahead. I've broken from the old, from both
within myself and the decadent negative, draining NRG of others. I never thought I could be this happy at once but as
always...The best is yet to come! For now I am here, living in the moment, as the summer draws to a close and the beautiful
fall weather, and my special birthday approach! I LOVE IT and THANK YOU ONE AND ALL FOR EVERYTHING!!!
Sunday, September 1, 2002
"What you are all learning to understand is what is true for you and how to
make your world work. We would start by saying that you are the center of your world, you are the power in your world. What
is it that you want? You want happiness? Do you want safety? Do you want joy? You want harmony? You want personal development?
You want peace? You want abundance? You are First Cause. This power that you have is no new thing. There are those of you
who have laid in the gutter or who have been without food, been on the verge of dying and have willed something and had it
manifest and thought that you were lucky. It was your desire, your calling of your own power that manifested in front of you.
This is a basic law of experience."
A message from SpiritWeb.Org
Friday, August 2, 2002 10:08 PM
Tim's words on Oprah.....
"She was such an inspiration and guiding light for me years before I knew anyone else
besides my mom like that. She showed me I wasnt crazy for what I thought and
believed. Both her and my mother inspired me to exercise.... Change my body......Change my life.....Change me for the better
To eventually loose 80lbs transforming
not only my body but spirit as well."
Tuesday, July 16, 2002 6:22 PM
"To make a difference.... That's what existences
are dedicated to for some of us. The challenge is to maintain that level of commitment and love for it. At times
this proves quite difficult for it alienate, even isolates the person from the rest of the world. They can never join
the masses however, being a part of one group, remaining stationary or growing together. No....to live they
must fly free and alone, touching the lives of others and helping to make existence brither for all.
Wow....What an existence that is, joyfilled and beautiful.
Until today however, it had been quite some time before I remembered all this. And that is why today was necessary for
me. Once the anger and negative NRG settled I remembered who I am and why I'm here. And now I shall find my Eagle!
He is waiting for me now. We'll meet on the full moon! I just remembered part of my magnificent dream last night.
It was very draining emotionally which made it very difficult to awaken. Fighting for freedom in both the dream world
and the real world is very difficult. I remember it all now. It was so very beautiful. We were fighting
for freedom, and I was given the machine to fly and win the war. It was destroyed however, and then I flew on my own!
That's the first time in quite a while I've dreamt of flying. There's something very familar about this moment.
Has something similar similar happened before or have I dreamt feeling and writing this before? Perhaps both?
In the dream I knew things would be ok. When my ship was destroyed I knew something else would come and when it did
it seemed familar. As though I'd lived or read the story before. In the end it was just me, seperated from
the rest of my group. And I FLEW! FLEW ON to my destiny! What perfect
timing! Thank you for allowing me to remember such a wonderful dream. Always
fly on and you know this......
I LOVE YOU!!!"
An excerpt from my treasured journal.
Wednesday, June 12, 2002
HOOOO HOOOOO !!!
HAPPY 1 YEAR ANNIVERSARY TO THE EAGLE NEST!!!
It's been a long way getting to this wonderful place but baby, I'm here with so much
to celebrate! Thanks so much to all for their love support and hope in the past year, not only with this site but being
there for me as well. As part of this special moment for me, I've blessed with a message of Love from my fellow Eagle
and partner in FUN! Click on the Messages page to view these special words.It's been a long road, getting from there
to here. It's been a long way and baby our time is finally HERE!!!
Look around and see many of the wonderful new things added along with some different
formats. Check out the links page to see some of the new links I've stumbled across or been told about. One particular
new site I'm very excited to include is the new SolAstrology.com website! Have a look at the new Messages and Adventures
pages braodcasting many of the adventures I've been having along with messages I feel are important to share with the world.
The Compositions tab has also been reformatted and updated as well. Click the link below to see the newest thing posted,
marking the begining of this new phase of the New Moon!
July 15, 2002
The results of an interesting color test Neil sent me from http://www.colorgenics.com.
"You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate
goal has been the realization of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often
been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.
You
are looking for something different. Your imagination has been working overtime and you are seeking adventure - and you'd
like to share that adventure, the new experience, with someone like yourself: Imaginative, Enthusiastic and Sensitive....."
"BLUE personalities are the most creative
and artistic of all of the colors. Imagination is your middle name and you love to express your mind freely. You are a true
visionary who usually makes your dreams come true!"
June 22, 2002
"Life is either a daring adventure
or nothing."
-Helen Keller
June 17, 2002 3:39 PM
"Well, on perhaps this last day on AIM I want to thank you for sharing the journey. However we communicate
from now on, it will be for the light, and for the planet. We are home bound."
Neil
 June 12, 2002
"An anniversary is a strange thing for an Eagle. Each day is an Anniversary of
the previous day's adventure. But
some are bigger than others, just as some
smiles are wider and the sound of some laughter rings on longer...and this
Anniversary
is one of those. The East Coast is brighter now than perhaps it was
when I landed there. Because one Light I know, I have
seen grow and grow. (ha,
poetry ;). Happy Anniversary to EagleBoyDC and to his Vision, which was growing
even before
we even met, even before he stood up one day and made a decision
that would change not only his life, but the life of thee
PLanet. And isn't
that an anniversary to celebrate?
This site is a REMINDER to me of who I a truly am, and
a reminder that I have a
friend, a soul-mate and a partner in Eagle-Light always. And that's the greatest
gift I could
ask for. Here's to the Vision, Tim. For in that Vision is
everything you could ever hope for, and everything you will ever
need.
Fly on. The dawn is no longer breaking. It's morning already."
Love,
Neil
xxx
3:03pm
June
12, 2002
Venice Beach, California
 June 10, 2002
Happy New Moon to all!!! Take a moment for yourself, decide what it is you want in the coming month and let the
peace sink in. And so begins the next phase! I love it!!!
"Happy new moon!!!! Saw eclipse and sending love plant seeds in blue
light for what u want now!! xxx"
-Neil
June 8, 2002
"In this life, every person needs to see the messages of hope and light in the world.
As Eagles we help to spread them while searching for each other to connect and unite in our great work."
-Tim
May 22, 2002
The Top 11 Secrets of Life
1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love
someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.
2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone
who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.
3. The best
kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the
best conversation you've ever had.
4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true
that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour
to like someone, and a day to love someone-but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.
6. Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark
day seem bright.
7. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only
one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.
8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that
it hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.
9. A careless word may kindle strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; a
timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless.
10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best
of everything they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.
11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends with a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around
you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.
May 14, 2002 11:18PM
I would like to take a moment send my NRG and love to someone who truly needs it right
now. She was once like a mother to me and though we are no longer as close I wish her well. Hers has been a difficult
path, however, it is my hope that the events of the last 24 hours will give her the strength to break free of the chains she
has been bound in her whole life. Good luck to you my friend! I LOVE YOU!!!
May 13, 2002
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL OUT THERE!!!
I'd also like to send a special message of love and appreciation to my own mother.
I could never have come this far or even been without you. I thank you for all those wonderful moments, filled
with love and generosity you've always given. I LOVE YOU MOM!
"You Are There"
April 19, 2002
Just before beginning to write here the quote
I have placed on the top of this page reading, "You will find it at the moment you truly need it!" As I sit here working I
feel the strength and truth in those words I myself spoke not so long ago. We are given the messages by the universe exactly
when we need them. Just when we think we are ready to give up, something comes along to give us a reason to hang on just a
little longer or a reason to stand on our own and make the changes for ourselves. It may be in the gentle breeze of a spring
day, words from someone close to you, a song on the radio, or even from a complete stranger.
At the core level there
is no one else anywhere who can bring that change about for you but you. This has been a most interesting time for me in my
life, these last few months. As always I'm learning more about myself and who I am but more importantly I'm learning who I'm
NOT! When you lived your life as a survivor as I have you become accustomed to it, even begin to relish it. Then, just when
you think you have things stable and figured out, the universe throws your life into chaos by bringing order to it. I felt
this blow after the death of my own father almost two years ago and at the time was not certain what I would do. So, I plunged
myself into my work, something which was important to me but took a long while to truly sit with the fact that there was peace
in my life.
Once there was disorder and uncertainty in my life I told myself I would find a way to make it and go
on. Yet I'd gone back to my old habit of trying to fix everything. The trouble was, I'd spent so much of my life fixing others
lives I wanted someone to come and fix my own. This hasn't happened of course for the universe has something bigger planned
for me (and on some level so do I). The more I thought about it the sadder I felt inside. I grew angry for the first time
in a long time. Angry at those who were in my life who refused to help me or even see I needed it. Most of all, however, I
was angry with myself for staying in that dark place. For I knew inside it had to be me who would make my life my own whole
one.
Today was my defining moment. There will be sadness after this, there will be heart ache and pain. I will continue
to love it as always before but next time I will know these thoughts inside. Today was my next defining moment. I've entered
yet another phase on this journey. As I sat at work talking to a friend about all this I felt myself being healed and actually
growing stronger inside.
I remembered running, walking, and flying those 1000 miles. I remembered the decisions made,
the risks taken and the victories won. I quietly remembered each of these but one moment stuck out in my head.....
This
moment was 2 days after my father had died. Mom, her friend Joan and I were cleaning out my father's van. We had been written
out of his will and his son who'd barely spoken to him had been given all his money, including that which was taken from me
for my college education. Yet even after receiving all this he still wanted the house we lived in and all of our cars, every
last bit of us. Mom found the registration for the van and it had her name on it as well, meaning we could keep it. She had
just started the van to see if it worked and just looked at it. I will never forget what she said next. "This is my van....This
is my damned van!" as she pressed the accelerator on it. As I heard the engine pulsate I could feel all of our NRG combined
doing the same, feeling the strength and freedom we all shared at that moment. I knew at that moment even if we'd lost everything
it wouldn't have mattered for we still had each other and we still had ourselves.
That was our moment,
for us. Stop! Take a deep breath and listen....
THIS IS YOUR MOMENT FOR YOU!!! LET
IT RIP BABY BECAUSE THERE'S NO STOPPING US NOW!!!
Wednesday, April 17th, 2002
Today's Inspirational Quote of the Day
"It's time we put thoughts of lack behind us. It's time for us
to discover
the secrets of the stars, to sail to an uncharted
land, to open up a new heaven where our spirits can soar.
But first
we'll have to make changes. And lasting change
does not happen overnight. Lasting change happens in
infinitesimal increments:
a day, an hour, a minute,
a heartbeat at a time."
April 2, 2002
An important message I just received from Neil which struck a cord in me and I wanted to share.
"It is very important that you do not limit yourself in Love because your story
is not the same as everyone else's.
You are unique and beautiful and capable
beyond measure to Love with the vastness of Spirit, no matter what your past
experience
has been. Remember, your story is not Who You Are.
I had an incredibly violent childhood. My body, mind, and emotions
were abused in ways that are hard to believe. So, I know what it is like to come from a past absent of Love. I came into this
world knowing who I Am, Rememebering everything before coming here, having full conscious experience of my conception and
birth, knowing what I came for, and have never forgotten. Even with the terror that has been in this life for me, I have always
known who I Am. I do not act like a typical abused child because my motivations are different, the clarity of my personality
is different, the stength of my spirit is unwavering (not more or less, just different). I hear extra, see extra, feel extra.
My senses are enlivened and sometimes oversensitive. I was born with special gifts and abilities that have not gone away with
time, or growing up, or programming, or getting them beaten out. The only thing that stops me from having them is me.
I've done my best at times to ignore them, shut them off, or abandon them, but
they are there whether I think they
are or not, whether I want them to be or
not. I can do many things that other people can't do...yet. In the kind of story
I
have come from, this has made me very isolated. Yet, I did not go crazy, do
not need extensive therapy for my entire life,
and I am not permanently damaged.
The truth is, none of us are ever permanently damaged. No matter what has
happened,
there is always a way to heal and grow. And no matter what happened, there is always a way to heal. And no matter what happens,
who you Are does not go away. In the world of healing there seems to be many back doors to not let go and be unaccountable.
There is no such thing as "Once an addict, always an addict," and being victimized does not justify continuing to be a victim
in life. These are cop-outs enabling one to rationalize getting out of the responsibility of spiritual growth, physical healing,
and movement forward. It is our birthright to Love and to Thrive, yet we have created all kinds of excuses to not do just
that. This is the Real craziness. You are your own Higher Power. You are not alone. You are already Free.
Tainting
the Truth by sugarcoating, or twisting the Truth in order to make it
more comfortable is a waste of energy. There simply
is not enough time to wait
or beat around the bush. Truth is important NOW, and that Truth is LOVE. Within the flame of
love nothing else exists. No amount of negativity or darkness can live in the light of Love. That is why it is so important
for us to amplify our own field of Love large enough to reach out into the world, to connect with the Grid that encompasses
this Earth caressing and nurturing the darkness into light, the Grid of Love.
You do not have to have psychic powers
or gifted abilities to Be Love, to Be who you Are, and to Live Truth. You are a child of God, a child of Love, special and
perfect in every way. You have something very important to offer by your Being.
The world is waiting for you to Open. Open your heart, let love flow in and out. Let love be your motivation in
every action. Let love be the first thing you
think about when you wake up in the morning and the last thing before bed
at
night. Let love fill up your body, every cell, until it overflows out into the
world, touching everything. Let Love
be your gifted ability; it is what you are
meant to do. Every moment take Love one step further in some way, let it grow
and grow. Love is endless, as is your ability to express and experience it.
There is no limit, no rule, no one way. The
more you Open, the more Love will
teach you, fill you, emanate from you. Do not wait. Start Now. Have Courage,
Intent,
Willingness. Let Love be the Truth you represent, the tool you carry,
the vehicle that brings you to every new step."
-Unknown
Tuesday, March 19, 2002
Have you ever had a moment when you just breath
and say to yourself, "I love my life!"? Imagine having a day where
you say this over and over feeling it to your core. Now take a deep breath and
just imagine living your life like this. Take that to infinity and that is how I feel about life right
now! When one makes a true connection to oneself and makes the choice to live
in the light every moment of everyday is lived with this feeling. Even when there
is pain, suffering, heartache or dark moments we still love it and thank the universe for evey minute of it. This is what it means at the core to be a member of the family of Light.
Live in the moment and embrace it to the fullest! Dream not of today!
Monday, March 18, 2002
Click below to see the final page of Neil's poetry book! A true, timeless masterpiece.
"Scorpio Rising"
Sunday, March 17 2002 12:04 AM
There is such a feeling of peace inside myself..
I sit here, surrounded by love and NRG from the family
of light.
I can feel it all around me and know that this is a true
moment. I lay here in place as ME!
No one can ever take that away from me. Throughout my life I have experienced moments like these.
Yet until recently they were like gems, rare as they were
beautiful.
In the last year as I have felt myself come into a greater
focus than ever I have actually been able to create these moments for myself, rather than sit and crave them.
Ive gone from one who sat wishing and hoping for so many
things to one who makes things happen for myself.
I am a creator of magic and adventure, not only for myself,
but for so many others in the universe. It is a gift to the world and I choose the recipients carefully.
And what a gift it is!
Consider what all the millions of people you see on the
street hold inside them.
What if we all released what is within us to unite together?
The very core of what this represents is the family of
light.
Very soon we shall all unleash the magic we hold inside
ourselves..
Release it and share it all..
What a beautiful world it shall be on that day and for
all time!
On that day the new age of light will begin.
In this new age good and evil, light and darkness, love
and hate shall exist together
This union will broadcast both the light and the dark to
all!
And together.we shall thrive.Live each moment to the fullest..
Soar to new heights.
Look for the greatest adventure
The highest mountain..
The greatest challenge..
The sweetest victory.
The longest race..
The rarest moments..
THE BEST DAY OF OUR LIVES!!!
Thursday, March 14, 2002
A message from Neil for the New Moon!
"The tides turn, the tears
burn, but the sun will always shine. The day was yours and the New Moon night....is mine."
"What you struggle to retain is not the truth. The truth is always with you. It could not be otherwise.
Some of that truth you feel and recognize. Some may be still hidden from your eyes, to be revealed another day, another
hour, when it is needed and not before."
Starseed: The Third Millennium
Ken Carey
March 12, 2002
Long before the days of cell phones, skyscrapers, and the internet...
One whose wings passed over the clouds before the rest of the world knew how to stand.....
Before
the pyramids....before Rome and Atlantis.......
Before it all there were Eagles flying high....
The honored guardians
of the universe....
Protecting the emerging world below....
Today we celebrate the rebirth of the biggest and brightest Eagle out there!
Happy Birthday to THE EAGLE BOY!!!
February 20, 2002
_____
Believe it or not, 8.02pm on February 20 this year will be an historic
moment in time.
It will not be marked by the chiming of any clocks or the ringing of
bells,but at that precise
time, on that specific date, something will
happen which has not occurred for 1,001 years and will never happen again.
As the clock ticks over from 8.01pm on Wednesday, February 20,
time will, for sixty seconds only, read in perfect
symmetry
2002, 2002, 2002, or to be more precise - 20:02, 20/02, 2002.
The last occasion that time read in such a
symmetrical pattern
was long before the days of the digital watch and the 24-hour clock
at 10.01am on January 10,
1001.
And because the clock only goes up to 23.59, it is something
that will NEVER happen again.
____
January 1, 2002
Using Your Life!
I am not defined by the clothes
I own, car I drive, or number of friends I have. I am defined by me, myself.... the person that I am today. It has taken me
21 years to get to this point and its an amazing place to be. As the song says however, "The best is yet to come!" What I
do with each day of my existence now is trying to determine how I make it better, life for myself and the rest of the world.
Last year one of my favorite things to do on Mondays last spring before going to run was watching Oprah give out the Use Your
Life Award. It gave me a surge of NRG inside seeing other people trying to use their life. Its a very delicate balance to
be able to take time for yourself each day and still be able to contribute something to the rest of the world but once you
find it, its a wonderful thing. We all must unite and work together, for together we can forge a chain of light that can not
be broken!
 November 11, 2001
A Celebration of Life!!!
21
years ago today I was born and so on the 11th day of the 11th month of the 1st year in the new century I am here with joy
lifting my spirit higher than ever. This last year has been filled with an amazing amount of growth and change for me as an
individual and an Eagle! Though the last few months have been filled with much work I love all that I am doing and know I'm
where I am meant to be now. Neil once told me that one's birthday sets the tone for the next year of one's life. This was
very true of my 20th year on this magnificent earth and I'm so very excited for what awaits me during my 21st year!!! Thank
you for my life and allowing me the ability to see it and live it to its full potential each day as I soar high above the
clouds!!!
Love and Eagle Light to all those amazing people around the world who have and will be an important part of
my life.
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~!!!
Thank you for the journey!
"And see what tomorrow will
be......"
A Trigger of Remembrance
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For many years the numbers 11:11 have been mysteriously appearing to people all over the world. Often appearing on digital
clocks, the sightings of 11:11 tend to occur during time of heightened awareness, having a most powerful effect on the people
seeing them. Each time we see the numbers 11:11 our cellular memory banks are further activated. There's a stirring deep
inside, a hint of remembrance of something long forgotten. The appearance of 11:11 is a powerful confirmation that we are
on the right track, aligned with the Greater Reality.
Repeated sightings of 11:11 have happened to millions of people throughout the world. Many want to know why this is happening?
What does the 11:11 signify?
When the 11:11 appears to you, it is your wake-up call. A direct channel opens up between you and the Greater Reality.
The 11:11 is an insertion point for the Greater Reality to enter into the
present moment. When this happens, it is time to stop whatever you are doing and LOOK LARGER. A transfer is in position.
You can enter the Greater Reality and travel deeper into the Invisible. You can seed a long held desire, receive a vision,
ask for help in some specific area of
your life, or simply feel the Invisible insert itself into the present moment.
The revelations you receive will not come in the form of mental concepts. Rather it will be an enhanced state of being
in which you will see everything as if with new eyes. A deeper understanding of what is truly real will surround you. The
appearance of 11:11 is an always beneficial act of Divine Intervention.
It tells you that it is time to take a good look around you and see what is real
and what is illusory. It's time to pierce the veils of illusion which keep us
bound to an unreal world. You have been chosen, because you are ready, to step into a Greater Reality. To lead the way
for others into a new way of living, into a Greater Love. To ascend from duality into Oneness.
The 11:11 is the bridge
between duality and Oneness.
It is our pathway into the Unknown.
August 17, 2001
One of my favorite things in life is music! It's a beautiful form of expression that has a way of lifting my spirit to
new heights. More than that, there are many songs I love which you can actually feel the energy of the song and it erradiates
inside me. Music is what I've excercised to throughout the years and allows me to find the strength to always Run On!
Something
I always say, in life the radio always knows whats going on with you and plays a song that has to do with it. Whether it be
a song that reminds you of your own saddness or the love of a friend or that extra push you need at that moment to pick yourself
up on keep going!
Music has given me many of my life anthems which give me strength and courage each day. One of my
favorite Mamma Cass songs says, "You gotta make your own kind of music, sing your own special song, make your own kind of
music, EVEN IF NOBODY ELSE SINGS ALONG!" This is definately relate to this line because for a long time I tried to do what
others wanted and gave too much of myself trying to please others. This left me with an empty feeling inside. After awhile
all I could feel was the darkness inside and was afraid if I truly looked deep down inside and let it out for the world to
see there would only be emptiness.
Years later once the walls I'd built to protect myself from the world had crumbled
and I was able to finally face what was inside what I found was amazing! It was not the darkness and emptiness I'd always
feared but Light, Energy, happiness, Joy, and a good heart and content spirit who wanted to help others.
To all who
are reading this and are doing the same or feeling the same; I want you to stop for one moment. Go into a room alone and look
at yourself in the mirror. Look into your eyes, the window to your soul and see how intricate, delicate and beautiful they
are; a rare gem.
We are all exactly the same way multiplied by 1 million.
Each of us is so important and so precious
in the grand scheme of it all. We are all here for something, a purpose which may or may not be revealed to us by the universe
or by God. Feel that moment thru to your soul and live every moment of your life feeling that and knowing just how special
and precious you are to us all!
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