Its too big.....
Its too tight.....
This shirt makes my stomach look big.....
These
shorts show too much fat on my legs
It looked great on the model in the store I swear
It never looked as good on me.....
None of it ever fit right, was my style, and most of all didn't feel right on me
Being 70 lbs lighter this suddenly
wasn't as much of a problem
But nothing I wore felt right inside
Looking in the mirror always gave me a sense of more
work to be done (on my body), more clothes to be bought(which actually fit)
To me old clothes still mean fat clothes
But
something has begun to change......
A deeper feeling and connection inside and all over
Now looking in the mirror
is a sense of triumph and strength
And in that triumph and strength there is more......
It wasn't about the weight
or even the clothes.....
It is that fire and energy inside us all which does matter
Each of us finds their own way
on the path of life, sometimes in different directions or lengths than we anticipate
I am slowly getting there, step by
step
I'm now less focused on the destination, rather on the journey
For now I do feel it all inside and the 1st time
I realized that I knew I'd found......
My Strongest Suit!
Written on Monday, August 27, 2001
