You just walked out the door yet again...
You knew I was unhappy, that something was wrong
Yet you said nothing...
You asked me how your hair looked, to validate your existence...
When will you start to validate mine?
When will you truly look and see me?
When will you run to me?
You always say nothing....
Instead you ask more of me, always more....
And yet when I fall hard you do not extend a hand to help me up but ask even more of me...
I've learned to pick myself up as I've seen you do 1,000 times in your own life..
But even then you had me....
And what do I have?
I have Eagles spread throughout the universe which provide support but still force me to do it alone.
I love it all for this reason but you....
Why when you see me down do you not extend your hand or at least walk away from me?
Why must you always ask more of me, pushing me back into the cold dark abyss?
The time has now come.....
The wind has shifted and you must make the decision...
Will you begin to see me and not use me as your mirror?
Or is this where we part?
I am destroying everything on this Full Moon....
This time I will not rebuild here but shall find my new nesting pad in the sky...
It is up to you now....
You must embark on the search for me...
When you find me in the sky remember the words I have shared with you today.
Treat my sprit with care.....
For in knocking me down you are truly destroying yourself.
Written on Friday, April 26, 2002 at 6:25 PM
